Monday, April 18, 2005
是你让我活在梦幻里
tt yeo really siao le...cant stand him anymore...yeo sucks..today really heard him saying shih joo stupid loh...he again say ppl stupid..then shih joo ask mr yeo..then tt yeo cum n ask me: y u always hear wrongly wan ah sijia?ur ear got problem izzit..dun always say me leh..i didnt say her stupid..cannot anyhow say de...
wah lau..i say him one sentence he say me back how many??siao...n then he said he dun dare to admit..scared me complain to ms haiza again..he really hopeless..where got ppl like him so thick skin?do oready must admit..he is not a guy..
today..wanna find sumone tok oso cannot...then wanna tok bout han qing with shih joo then she dun wanna listen de..nvm...sipei n shih joo sit together then leave me alone..with huishan..i wanna say alot of personal things to shih joo..i dunno y now i trust her a lot n i treat her as a gd fren..n i tell her a lot of things..secrets..deep inside my heart..but she dun seem to be treating me as one..she just see me as a fren tt is nth to her..coz she can simply find her other frens..she is so popular now...even sipei oso like her n always tok to her..sipei is so close to her..i dun like it!n i wanna tok to sipei...a lot a lot of things..but she oso dun seem to be listening..then i tok to shu rong she dun even noe i am toking to her..wat the..anyway..i dun understand wat's wrong with saying sorry to ppl...it's courtesy right..i did sumthing wrong n say sorry..hmm..can anyone tell me??i beri scared ppl get angry..becoz of me..i scared i do sumthing wrong so i say sorry..many times..yah i admit tt i hav low self esteem but this is sumthing tt cannot be changed..i cant help it..it's just me..i am beri sensitive to wat ppl say n how they think...especially if they r mad at me..so..i say sorry..i dunno wat they r thinking n ppl dunno wat am i thinking..u can say i am weird..i am no confidence in life..in myself..the world..the ppl..
