Monday, May 22, 2006
是你让我活在梦幻里
haiz..got all the results le.i failed a maths k.failed SO badly.totally disappointed with myself.not becoz i failed maths coz i had expected this outcome but im disappointed with my language.i take language beri seriously.they r beri important to me.yup i got A1 for chi but i dropped.n plus there were so many who had done so much better than me.feng lao shi let us read those gd compos n i realised 'yi shan hai bi yi shan gao'.i was defeated.i admit their compo were great,even up to a standard tt i noe beri well i cannot reach.it's far out of my expectation.i thought too highly of myself;i was too confident.forget it.just learn frm others.i really admit they r beri gd,esp jin mei.her compo is captivating.it's totally amazing.i just hav to work hard.n i just got a B4 for eng.can u believe it?n i got B3 for lit.i wanted at least an A2.i noe beri well in my heart,im further n further away frm my dream.i dun think i can even get into poly.my L1R4 sucked k.film n media studies wont accept this kind of aggregate.it's just too far away.i didnt noe it was so difficult.it's more difficult than i thought.i think i should just give up coz i hav totally lost my confidence again.
to sipei: i noe u can get into the film n media studies de.with ur results.it's really gd.esp ur maths.work harder ba.u stand a better chance of getting in there than me.wish u all the best.:] must work hard wor.ur language oso gd de.i noe my own limits.some things just cant be forced.i noe i well i cant get it means i cant.it;s not tt i dun wanna try but a person really has some limits.cannot be ur schoolmate le lar.i will support u de.
n guess wat?im the new sectional leader.like wth?tt's sooooo out of my expectation.things r getting out of hands.wat i expected didnt happen,wat i nv ever dreamt of came true.arghhh.life is like tt.full of surprises.but this is something REALLY surprising.who will ever choose me lah.i thought it will be sipei or corina.either one of them definitely has more capability than i hav to be the SL.expect for the fact tt im 'guai' in the eyes of teachers,there r no other qualities i possess to be a leader lor.i certainly dun hav leadership.no.i can speak up.n i cant take the stress lah.it's so stressful k.look at yuhui.she's such a great leader to everyone of us in zhong ruan grp.she's just such a nice person.so it is understood tt she is the leader.but me?er??n plus look at the leaders,they r all those who can play so well.i dunno how to choose,base on wat.but if they choose base on how gd u play.i defintely cant.then tt bian tai yu hui play so well.imagine lao zhou catch me n i played badly n im the sectional leader.a leader n yet she cant play well.haiz....wat am i going to do?somemore its not tt i cant play well.the worst thing is,im the worst in ruan.
