Monday, August 07, 2006
是你让我活在梦幻里
my ah ma passed away on 3rd august. thursday evening.
on tt day when i was in sch,during the chi lesson andy suddenly came rushing in n he had to go home coz his grandfather passed away.i was quite shocked.
i dunno y at tt beri moment i had a VERY strong feeling,bu xiang de yu gan.
tt my ah ma is going to leave me soon.
i just had tt feeling.
i was quite scared and worried.
i hadnt been visiting her in the hospital for a few days,after her condition worsened.
coz had alot of tests everyday and my parents ask me to concentrate on studies.
i finally had time tt day,on thurs afternoon after sch.
i wanted to go to the hospital.
my parents asked me to stay at home to take care of my bro.
they ask me to go on fri.
so i didnt go.
thinking back now,i feel tt im so bu xiao.
i should hav visited her everyday.
i didnt get to see her the last time.
on wednesday i was still thinking of folding paper cranes for my ah ma.
to wish her get well soon.
but i dunno how to fold,so i wanted to learn.
i was still trying on thurs night how to fold myself.
with no idea my ah ma had passed away a few hrs ago.
my parents called around 8 and told me they r cuming back late.
i had NO idea.none.
when they came back,they told me.ah ma passed away.
my sis hugged me and cried.
i was so shocked.it's just so unexpected
and it's scary to noe tt the yu gan i had in the afternoon was cuming true.
i wan to thank sipei,siru and bee suan for cuming to the funeral. =)
and thanks to all those who cared for me.
ppl like amanda,gor,andy,huang hao..
this afternoon we sent ah ma off to mandai cremation.
we watched ah ma pushed into the big room.and then into a door,
and we shouted.'ah ma wake up' in hokkien.
we burst into tears.
cant help it.
slowly the door closed.
the process is so fast.
the door is closed and tt's it.
then we shouted,ah ma deng chu(ah ma go home)
tml they r collecting her ashes le.
then wed we going to da jiu's house to pray.
ah ma,i miss u alot.
i love u.
u will always be in my heart. =)
