Tuesday, September 19, 2006
是你让我活在梦幻里
tml is my the 49th day after my ah ma passed away..
they going to pray at the temple where her ashes r placed in.
eh i cant go coz got sch. -.-
i nv had a chance to pray and visit her since the funeral k.
haiz..
reminded of all those things again.feel like crying. T.T
kah yan scolded michelle WHORE la.
she is such an ........
i bet she doesnt even noe the meaning of WHORE.
n she anyhow used it to scold.
her eng standard is like WOW.
clap clap for her man.
always wanna act pro.
'ms lee like ppl who r gd in sci'.
my ass man.
as if ms lee likes her.
who can stand her la.except for her 'dear' stead?
this stead sooo nice nv stand out for her when she's 'ACCUSED' wan.
owe ppl money still dare to scold ppl.
we just learnt tt word WHORE in lit class la.
i bet she's so malu used the wrong word.
some words cannot anyhw use de la pls.
so crude.
i dunno y i hav a feeling tt i am being left out these days.
it seems as if there's a distance between me n them.
i feel a bit lost.a bit sad.
they dunno.they cant tell.
i oso dunno hw to tell them.
i feel tt i cant get into their 'world'.
i cant join in their conversations.
i dunno wat they r toking.
i can just hear them say,n say nth.
or i just pretend tt i noe.
n they dunno tt im hoping.
hoping they can say sumthing i noe.
i can share with them.
they r toking bout those korean/jap/idol things most of the time..
i wish to join in bt i really dunno wat they r toking.
n they just continue n continue...
i feel tt im lonely.
i dun hav anyone to tok to.
n sometimes they forget bout my presence?
i realised the things i like n the things they like r so diff.
tt causes a gap between us i guess.
im the odd one out?
i try to understand the things they like.
bt im just nt into it.
i like dbsk,bt i m nt as obsessed as they r..
so i cant join them n discuss hw much we like dbsk..
all bout them..their music etc..
i can actually understand hw bee suan felt when we were hiding frm her the party thing.
she felt left out too..
we were all toking bout it bt she couldnt join in.she can only kp guessing bout wat r we toking bout,n wat is it all bout.
she can only hear us tok bout it n nt telling her..
who can sense my loneliness??
im like a person who is lost in a world tt i m nt familiar with.
im stuck in between ppl who seem so close yet so far frm me..
they r supposed to b so close to me,bt i seem like a stranger to them.
im like living in my own world~
[有一种莫名的失落感。
我融入不了他们的世界。
突然感到好孤独，好寂寞。]
