Wednesday, November 08, 2006
是你让我活在梦幻里
had been damn busy this few days.
always feel tt time isnt enough.
i wanna sleep!had been obsessed with superjunior this few days.haha.
spending most of my time at superjunior forum..
i love them so much!<3
p.s. dun worry zaizai i still love u.LOL.
haven been watching silence for quite some time.
still stuck at epi 12??opps..i dun even rmb where i stop.haha!
tried to post a few days ago bt.
the stupid blogger kp having problems and i cant update!
i wanna put superjunior photos in my blog la.
i think im going to write longer post coz i will cum less often nw.
like,write a few days de things all in one post. (sry!)
of coz u cn choose nt to read.haha.i am long winded.:P
ok.a few days ago.i was so pissed off.
my father suddenly brought up the issue of my results.
and he asked in a
weird way.
he asked:i had this dream bout u,tt u didnt show me ur results. (funny way of asking me to show him my results right?)
i was like 0.o quite shocked.
i said i wanted to give bt i forgot,then they went overseas le.so didnt give.(which is true,i really
forgot)so i showed him my report bk.
and .....
father: y ur a math fail until like tt? (i got an E8)
me:my a math always fail wan wat. i gt improve leh.
father:wat is combine humans?oso fail..(i
passed k.i gt like 50.8?)
(i guess coz he saw the underlined marks coz i failed the past few tests)
me:erm it's history and social studies. beri difficult de.
father:ur level position
only 134/203?? (wth..)
me:so?
father:it's below average la. (WTH im in the LAST class in express,wat do u expect?)
if u r below average in ur sch,means when u r taking o levels u will b below average in whole s'pore.and summore ur sch isnt really gd.so means u oready lose to alot of ppl.and u must think,u r competing with so many ppl in o levels.
me: .....
father:u like tt cannot even go into poly la. (WTH?)
btw my L1R5 gt 22,L1R4 got 17 k.cannot go poly my head.
me: level position doesnt mean anything la,and our class is the last class in express leh.means im oready better than alot of ppl in other better classes.
father:dun tok bout ur class,tok bout the whole sch.coz u r competing with all of the sec 4s taking o levels next yr,nt only with ur class.
mum:must top 20% then can go uni de leh..u like tt hw?(she finally said sumthing and wth,top 20% then can go into uni?my foot.)
i was too angry to say anything.feel like bursting out into tears oready.
mum:u go and ask jie jie la.next yr o levels oready leh,still kp playing and going out,go to k box,chalet.......or play the com..(i just asked her if i can go to sipei they all de chalet,and she say
yes ok)
me: okok,i dun go la!!(so pissed nw)
i gave the report bk to my mum and ran out of the rm.
y r parents all like this?
they r NEVER satisfied with our results.
i worked hard,i did.
i tried my best wat.and if i still get this kind of results means i really reached my limits?
hello i got like 7th in class,though our class is the last in express?
tt's nt gd enough ah?
i improved EVERY subject k.i mean it,every.
though some the improvement isnt great,bt at least i improved.
and i dun understand.holidays dun go out and play then when go out?
next yr o levels then go out?
NOBODY stays at home whole day to study during this long yr end holiday de loh.
can still study bt no need whole day stuck at home right?
no freedom at all.
and i hardly went out this holiday.
all they care bout is results.
tt day i just locked myself in the bathroom and cried and cried.
i cant even cry out loud and in front of others.
coz when my father see he will say: u cry for wat?i say u a bit only then u cry..
nobody bothered,expect my sis.
i always thought my parents were understanding.my mum was ok.
i still rmb she sent me an e card to ask to to TRY MY BEST before the end of yr exams.
my father was the more unreasonable one.used to it oready.
bt they wld just say:gotta work harder ah,dun always play..
tt day they just came bk frm malaysia.
and my father was like.nt in a gd mood oready.
tt doesnt mean u can fa xie on me?
p.s.: im so sry,didnt noe this post will end up sooo long.u can skip the conver part.haha.
i just wanted to let it all out in this post. =)
