Thursday, December 14, 2006
是你让我活在梦幻里
sometimes i really feel disgusted by myself.
i suddenly realised i changed alot.
n i dun like it.
i think im so scary nw.
i get pissed off by ppl easier than i usually do.
n tt's nt gd.
i get angry over smaller things nw.
i diao ppl sometimes when i really gt pissed off by them..which is oso nt gd.
i just dun like myself being like this.
im really sry if i made anyone angry or i was angry with anyone without any gd reason.
really sry.
i cant seem to control my anger le.
usually when i get pissed off by something or someone or i get really mad i dun show it.
n i just kp it to myself n after a while i feel better le..
i dunno hw to express my feelings or show someone tt im angry or wat.
i dunno hw to speak out for myself.or shld i say dun dare?
im scared tt my attitude nw will make ppl angry.
i really scared tt ppl get angry becoz of me..
i get bullied by my own younger bro n tt is really pathetic.
i dunno hw to control him,i dunno hw to make him listen to me or respect me.
he dun treat me like his sis at all n i believe i had been tolerant enough with him le.
he shouts at me,he shows attitude,he threatens me,he dun even listen to me,n he's nt scared of my at all.
i just wish he cn show me a bit of respect tt he should give as a brother.
changed my blog de song le.this song is call 女爵 by 杨乃文.
dunno whether u all cn hear the song or nt.
it's a nice song.think she's a new singer recently then hear her songs de.
heard this song on radio n first time heard it the time i thought it was quite nan ting esp the first few sentences.
bt then if u listen on and a few times it's really nice.
her voice is unique.i like it.
listen the first time i thought it was an eng song then fan chang into chi song de.
coz the tune sounds SO familiar.
i asked my sis she say it is nt.she oso say it sounds like bt then it's nt..
the chorus part is beri nice. the '在我的空虚身体里面 爱上哪个肤浅的王位 在你的空虚宝座里面 爱过什麽女爵的滋味'
