Thursday, April 05, 2007
是你让我活在梦幻里
god i still cant believe it's over.somebody pls wake me up n tell me tt's it's all a dream?
n SYF isnt over yet?
we haven got silver?
we r still going back for practices?
it's been only
days and im missing CO oready.
there r really alot alot alot of things i cant let go.
I WAN MY RUAN.
we r returning our costumes on MONDAY!
it's been through big n small performances through..3 yrs?
public performances,speech day,sch concerts,SYF.
it's the pride our CO.
i dun feel secured leaving my ruan in the music store,
becoz i feel tt our dear juniors(sarcastic) dunno hw to take gd care of them.
im toking bout the sec 2s.
yvonne n pamela n guai n great juniors.:)
fiona i hv faith in her too.
i cant imagine wat will happen after the sec 4s leave.
without our strict corina controling them.lol.
i oso dun think the 2 beri kind juniors pamela n yvonne noes hw to control them.lol.
everything's back to normal again.
school,lessons.
the same old boring lifestyle,going to sch only for lessons.
in the past i used to look forward to going to sch when there r practices.
nw there's nth to look forward to.
there's no motivation to study.
i hv no mood to concentrate during lessons,to study.
i had been slping every single afternoon after sch.
im really tired.
it feels empty without anything to do after sch.(other than hw of coz)
i just heard the recording of our SYF performance.
i think i sort of understood y we didnt get silver.
i guess we still hv alot of work on if we wanna get gold.
it's nt tt easy after all.
i guess it's of coz partly becoz we r all nervous,i mean who wont.
so it affects our performance.
the saddest thing is tt i realised ruan played off beat.
we were like.rushing..
i didnt realised it.
i didnt realised too tt it was actually
so obvious.
were we part of the reason y we didnt get gold?
we rushed through the song,i think becoz we were nervous too,
n as a result i think the whole orchestra somehw went faster than normal too.
i feel guilty,n sad,n disappointed.
bt anw its over..there's nth we can do..
other than tt,i still strongly believe tt we did well.:)
FHCO n rumao queens are the best.:)
AND-
the worst thing is,
i forgot to take photo for the last time,with my make up on,costume on!
oh the important day of SYF!
argh!!T.T
sadly tt was the last chance i will get to wear the costume.
i took photos only AFTER i removed my make up n changed..T.T
