Wednesday, January 21, 2009
是你让我活在梦幻里
i think i may just go mad some day.maybe not some day, maybe today.this is the first time i saw him getting so angry.
maybe it's not anger, maybe it's a little...绝望了的感觉
it's quite understandable that he's this angry,i think.
imagine being the head of a cca,
and you are actually putting effort and bother to do something for the cca.
you wish to see this cca working well and running smoothly under you.
but this is not the case.
and the teacher puts the blame on you.
and nobody bothers to listen to you.
but the worst part is, it's not even the case that you are not
doing anything.
you tried, but it just doesn't work.
how would you feel?
i think the purpose of joining a cca, is because there must be some kind of.i dunno, affection? feeling? attachment? towards it?
what is the purpose of joining a cca and you don't even go for a single practice or whatsoever.
and what is the purpose of joining a performing arts when, you don't even have the heart to go for SYF. and be prepared to give your heart and soul and mind and everything, to this one and only,ultimate goal, SYF.
won't you
want to achieve something,for SYF?
or just go there,and get a COP,saying,"it's okay, what matters is the experience.not winning."
it is really really tiring.
and sometimes it is nt that we don't want to do something.
it's just, 心有余而力不足.
