Thursday, May 07, 2009
是你让我活在梦幻里
reality is cruel. and when reality finally sinks in....
my dad sent me an email again after he saw that i was feeling so down and depressed after coming home from SYF yesterday.
he told me he understands the disappointment and if it was him he will be disappointed too.
he told me lots of stuff bout how failure may not be a bad thing because we all emerge stronger after that.
he said, this is life, and reality is just this cruel.
and it takes time to get over it.the faster we can forget, the better off we will be.
i understand all the philosophical stuff about failure and trying the best is enough already stuff.
people kept telling me bronze is good enough, what matters is that we all tried our best.
i feel like telling them, really, that it
isn't good at all.
they make it sound so easy and stuff cos.
they don't and will never understand how hard it was.
the disappointment comes not only from the results.
yes we weren't good.
but still, that is not something anyone will want to get,after so so so much pain and effort.
months of hard work and pain just ended in less than 10 minutes.
it was like a dream. and now it is over and we all have to wake up to the truth.
